This could possibly be one of the most difficult topics I”ve written on in a while. As a survivor of divorce I will be the first to admit that trusting my intuition is something I had never done. I was quick to assume that my doubt or feelings of worry were all in my head. Most times what I was concerned about was something those around me had no idea was going on. For the few that I had confided in there was no concrete proof. I made the decision to look my intuition in the eye and just shake my head in wonder.
Since the divorce I have gone through a lot of emotional changes but this one I was unaware of until recently. This past weekend my intuition paid a visit. I was very surprised when it had arrived, as I had resolved a long time ago that our relationship had ended. I was faced with a dilemma and instead of shying away from the feelings that were invading my gut I chose to act on them. In doing so I was able to find the proof I needed to ease my wonder and solved the case!
I had a brief moment of fear creep in when I was going through all of the possibilities of what may or may not have transpired. The most important of all of those feelings was that they were the SAME feelings I felt all those times in my marriage when my intuition was trying to tell me something. I even had the sickness in my stomach, which surprised me because the weekend event itself was not that upsetting. It was not something I would hope would happen, but it was not life changing. I’m glad though that I was able to have a mild reason to be able to learn to trust my intuition again. This way the next time I am faced with something more serious, I will be more than ready.
I was happy, confident, and even gloated just a little bit. I felt like I could really begin a new relationship with myself, my emotions, and what goes on in my silly little mind. I had proven to myself that if I just take the time to think and act on my feelings I can get to the bottom of things.
Then a switch was flipped. As I stated this instance was an easy one. The outcome that I was trusting in was not life changing like the divorce was. I started to question whether or not I could trust my intuition if the stakes were higher. We don’t know how we are going to react to any given situation. If we can’t trust our own thoughts or feelings then I believe we won’t have trust in anyone or anything. All situations come with doubt, even the good ones. Deciphering between a feeling of doubt and an uneasy feeling is the hard part.
If something is making you uneasy then it is probably a good idea to get to the bottom of it. Those uneasy feelings will only lead to more serious conditions. Here is my take on it. Feelings of doubt usually will go away after some consideration, advice gathering, reflection and prayer. When you are uneasy about something and your body is screaming at you, it is probably a good idea to listen to it. If you immediately know the answer without having to guess; you have that feeling that you are correct; something is pulling at your gut telling you this is how it is. These are the times when you trust your intuition, your mind, and your body.
Trusting in what your body is telling you about the situation is not an easy task. It will take practice, but most of all it will take a willingness on your part to face the outcome, good or bad. A natural reaction in these situations is to ignore it. We like to tell ourselves it will all work itself out. I have found there is a downside to that. I spent many years telling myself those exact words instead of listening to my gut, and in turn had more difficulty when it did come time to face it.
This past weekend was a gentle reminder of what I am capable of when it comes to trusting in myself. Just a day or so after this revelation I am faced with yet another circumstance this one is proving to be more challenging. I have faith in myself that I will once again be able to trust my intuition and act accordingly.
During a significant life changing event we sometimes lose sight of the fact that we are really in tune with our emotions. Sometimes we just need a little nudge to get us restarted again. Is there a time when your intuition was screaming at you? Please leave a comment.
Kimberly
Courageous Butterfly
9/5/12
Out of the Chrysalis 