Author: Kimberly Novak

Kimberly Novak is a wife, mother, author, retreat facilitator, and Spiritual Director. Her passion to inspire, and motivate those on a spiritual journey has bloomed into various ministries. Kimberly’s mission is to enhance each journey by guiding others where the light of strength is…God’s love. Her debut children’s book will be released in the spring/summer of 2022. Her writings and blog are at KimberlyNovak.com.

2015 in review

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Thank You!!!!! To everyone who read, shared, posted or commented. I’m a little bummed to see the number of my posts was so low at just 14.   I have a goal for 2016 of at least 36 to shoot for.

A special thanks to my top referrer:

http://lessonsfromtheendofamarriage.com

Enjoy the report

Kimberly

Courageous Butterfly

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2015 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 8,100 times in 2015. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 7 trips to carry that many people.

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Milestones

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6a0120a4cbac3d970b0120a5ea961e970b-800wiGood, bad and the ugly, milestones come in all shapes and forms.  Some are worth celebrating and others we dread.  Today I hit a big one.  It is one that I dreamed of celebrating but God had other plans.

So how do you non-celebrate something you looked forward to your entire lifetime?  You make lasagna and eat it on your china!

Unfortunately for me this milestone will always surround the Christmas holiday and that is something I am still learning to cope with.   I have two milestones in the same month, my divorce anniversary and my wedding anniversary then Christmas just a few days later that is just cruel!

The last four years were ok, I mean I felt sadness but for some reason this big year 5 for the divorce and what would have been my 25th wedding anniversary are hitting me very hard.

I’m not stressing over what happened, or what I lost.  I’m missing what could have been.  When I attended the divorce support group they told me not to even think about a new relationship for 5 years and I laughed thinking ya right!  I can tell you now how correct they were.  There have been so many times when I thought I was “over it” and healed, then moments like today happen.  Would they happen if I was involved with someone? I don’t know.  But in the now this is where I am.

Every Christmas since the divorce I have added a new tradition to my family and that is something I need to continue.  Had both of these anniversaries been in another month, I don’t think it would have had the same affect me, but because it has I am feeling the need to keep creating new memories.  I’m having fun and have labeled it my Christmas Antics.

So here I sit 5 years post divorce still somewhat broken but hopeful that it is just temporary.  Learning how to stop looking back on the past and focusing on the future.  I know I can’t go back, can’t change the past I need to learn how to live with what happened and I know next year will be better.  This year it’s just those big milestones that have put a chink in my chain.

Have you thought you were healed and then realized you were still in the process of healing?  Please comment.

Kimberly

Courageous Butterfly

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Number 5….

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okThis week will mark the five year anniversary of my divorce.  Needless to say my emotions are all over the place. December is a tough month, we would have been married 25 years and then toss in Christmas.  Divorced and married in the same month does not bode well in the healing process.

Today I decided to look into that magical number five. At this point I feel like it should all be water under the bridge but for me this number year seems to be the hardest, and I need to know why.

In our society we like to celebrate things by year, birthdays, anniversaries, jobs, etc and for some reason we make the 5 or 10 year moments mean more than the rest.  20, 25, 30 to 50 are celebrated benchmarks.

Being on the cusp of my five year divorce anniversary is not fun, and I’m not quite sure how I want to handle it.  Why is this year different from any other year? Why does it seem to stand out more? Will I go through this every five years? and what is with the number 5?  So I googled it:

The number 5 symbolizes God’s grace, goodness and favor toward humans and is mentioned 318 times in Scripture. Five is the number of grace, and multiplied by itself, which is 25, is ‘grace upon grace’ (John 1:16). The Ten Commandments contains two sets of 5 commandments. The first five commandments are related to our treatment and relationship with God, and the last five concern our relationship with others humans.

Five is the number of balance.

Five symbolizes man, health and love.number 5

Marriage

It combines the female number two with the male number three. Five is the number of marriage.

 

SO, are my feelings warranted?  Heck Yes!  5 is God’s grace and also the number of marriage.   I’m living in God’s grace but also grieving the number 5.

If you can shed light on this magical number please respond.

Kimberly

Courageous Butterfly