There are so many different ways to finish the thought Love Is…. and today I heard a song that really filled in those blanks for me. This is probably one of the topics where I could sit and blog for hours on so many different points. Tonight I just want to focus on how I felt when I heard some of the lyrics. (You will find a link to the song at the bottom of this post.)
Sometimes love will make you cry. Recently, my journey has brought on an unpleasant challenge. Surprisingly the first thing I struggled with was the fact that I still wanted to go to my ex for comfort. Here I am after all of the time, heartache, disappointment, resentment, and pain still wanting to share important life changing moments with him. I have had to share some instances with him that concerned the kids, but this time was different, because it concerned only me. To tell you the truth I really didn’t know what I wanted or needed from him, it was just the fact that I was so used to sharing important things with him for so long. I was not ready to break that cycle; until now. When I heard the lyrics “Sometimes love will make you cry” I knew that it is time to move past that urge of calling on him in a crisis. This is something that I didn’t know still needed work and realizing it was step one. I will always carry some kind of love in my heart for the person I spent half of my life with. Learning how to put that love behind me is step two.
Love will change your life. This spoke to me on so many different levels. There are so many forms of love that can change your life. For instance the fact that I love my job! I never thought I would end up where I am. I am so grateful and blessed to have all of the people who were brought into my life because of it. Love won’t leave you empty. The love from my church and Sister’s In Christ. I cannot even begin to describe how my faith has blossomed because of the love I receive from all of those special people. These instances all involved Love and they in fact have changed my life.
Love can heal you if you let it inside. My absolute favorite lyric! So many people are afraid to let love back in once they have gone through a heart-break. I did not think it would be something that I would willingly do. I say willing because it is definitely something that I wanted; but would I be able to let it happen? Even letting in strong friendships was a scary thought for me because I also lost my best friend in the divorce. Luckily, I did not struggle with my decision for very long. I have begun to allow some of those feelings happen for me again. It has been extremely healing for me. Scary – yes! but the amount of happiness that feeling like that again has brought into my life, far outweighs anything that is scary about it.
Remember, love’s not easy….but it’s worth it. Worth it, as are most things in life that are not easy. As survivors we have to love ourselves enough to allow those feelings back into our lives. It will take confidence to be willing to allow it to happen. Imagine the caterpillar in the chrysalis finally realizing that she/he is worth it; the chrysalis breaks and she/he is free to fly. We can have that same experience and how beautiful it is!
Love can hear you, I know love will heal you….. Are you allowing Love back into your life? Please share.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tO65vqbkG_0
Kimberly
Courageous Butterfly
7/10/12
A friend of mine sent me this picture saying it could be the beginning of a great blog post. I was not only honored that she was thinking I could write a great post, the timing of it was perfect. This week I have had something very heavy that I’ve been carrying around with me since the divorce. I’ve been patiently waiting for the matter to be resolved and it’s just not happening. This message from my friend came at a time when I really needed it.
When I first looked at the picture I was surprised because I was not focused on the butterfly, I only saw the rock. I could relate more with it than I could the butterfly. I have to admit that freaked me out! When I look at the rock I see the pressures that have been building up. I see my worry attached to the rope. I wondered, what will it take to clip that rope and set the butterfly free? Then I thought, what will it take to set me free?
Long story short there have been circumstances out of my control that are causing this matter not to be resolved, yet I am the one carrying the weight. I have tried countless times to let it go. I even have placed it in my worry box; when I have something I need to let go and let God, I write it on a slip of paper and lock it up inside. I’ve had this matter in the box since December 2010. Even when the circumstances were good for this particular matter, I still had some distress.
As I was dealing with the events of the week I kept thinking back to the picture. I wondered, what do I need to do in order to cut my rope on this particular circumstance? What do I need to do to release myself from this strain so that I am free to move forward? I also questioned, is it time to sever the tie, or do I still have things to take care of before I can do that?
The only reasonable answer to those questions is that I will control what I can, and try to better the situation. With the hope, that once I do, my bond will be broken and I will be set free. I decided since it’s been over a year I better write it down again, as a reminder that some things I cannot control. After doing so, it is a little easier to see the butterfly. I can also see where the string is tied. It looks like all it needs is a little tug and the burden will be released.
So my friends I ask you, what is weighing you down and what will it take before you can tug? I’d love for you to share, leave a comment and begin to set yourself free.
Kimberly
Courageous Butterfly,
6/13/12
On a side note, I’d like to dedicate this post to my Women’s Renewal Team. Joy & New Hope 2012.
Out of the Chrysalis 