It is a frustrating feeling when you are unsure about something that you think is truth but you have not been able to achieve getting concrete proof. I have had doubts about something that happened in the past. The reason I doubted myself at all is because it was not something that was tangible. I couldn’t see it therefore maybe it didn’t really happen. Well, I was not expecting to ever really learn if my truth was actual and I have finally been provided with the confirmation I was hoping for. I am happy to say that I can now let go of every bit of that doubt.
Here is where it get’s tricky. The information I was hoping for is also something that was very upsetting to me and really hard to take. Even though deep down I knew it was the truth, getting that confirmation was a scary feeling because of the pain it caused me for so many years as well as in that moment. I am Excited to report that it was in fact only a “moment”. As soon as I realized that I was heading towards those horrible feelings of pain and hurt is when I realized that it wasn’t pain I should be feeling, it was VALIDATION. I had been suffering for so long with my own doubts wondering if what I thought was the truth really was and in this “moment” I was Blessed with the truth. Therefore, I did not slide down the slope of pain and hurt instead I stood proud in knowing that I had been Validated. If this has taught me anything, it is that I will forever trust my instincts even if I do not have concrete proof. The worst that can happen is that I may be wrong, it is nothing compared to having feelings of doubt.
Sometimes it is hard for us to be tuned into seeing the signs of something that is happening directly in front of our faces. There were a few signs that were thrown into my face for many years but for some reason I didn’t see them coming. I was obviously looking in another direction, but if I had seen the signs would it really have mattered? I believe the answer to that question is YES. Allowing myself to see the signs may not have changed the outcome but instead may have made it easier to handle. We know that everything happens for a reason and there is a reason that it took me so long to finally be able to know the whole truth. 
Maybe someday I”ll know what that reason is or maybe not. For me today it does not matter what the reason is or was because along with the validation came acceptance. Now that I have the truth I have something tangible and I can choose to accept what happened and move forward.
Recently, today actually, I was again Blessed by a HUGE sign about something else going on in my life that I had wondered about. I know that the only reason I was able to see it is because of what I went through. I am now able to see the signs whether they are big or small and I will always allow them to be present in my life. I am grateful that I was able to accept what happened in the past and begin to move forward.
So my friends I’d like to ask you. Have you ever had the privilege of seeing your signs or had the validation experience? If so how has it changed you?
Kimberly
Courageous Butterfly
4/22/12
